winter time blues

The constant melting of the snow and refreezing of the water into ice on the walkways that i walk on my way to work has brought the number of times i have fallen on my bum this winter to three. Winter needs to over quickly. It can still be nice and cool outside but the snow and ice are getting on my nerves.

happy birthday to me

For those of you who haven't found out yet yesterday was my Birthday. Joanna gets the prize for the earliest person who didn't have wish me happy birthday to wish me happy birthday. and Faye and Amanda are a close 2nd and 3rd place, hurray for Facebook! Thanks to everyone who made my birthday special, including my Mom, Dad, Sister and Brother for being with me this weekend, my grandparents for calling me and making sure I knew they cared, and my girlfriend for allowing me to be lazy and lovingly being with me throughout Sunday. I am now 23. 23 sounds really really old. I have been over 18 for half a decade and I feel like I have made a lot of good decisions in my adult life. I hope to make many more in the future.

my brain officially hurts

yes it is official. there is pain in my brain. it is caused by math class. Mathematical things have been flowing in and out of my head. and its hard as hell when it take so long to type this stuff out. Computerized equation editors are so not user friendly.

Yesterday, was Valentines day. there were good things and bad things.
Good thing: It snowed so much that school was closed
Bad thing: it snowed so much both cars got stuck in the snow
Good thing: My Love and I were dressed nicely
Bad thing: Shoveling the car (without a shovel, yes we shoveled with anything we could find, including a now broken rake) while nicely dressed. For me not so bad, but my love had nice shoes and no socks. It was bad.. she was very upset and one step away from going into don't touch me phase.
Good thing: I was able to surprise my love with a reservation at a fancy restaurant and she enjoyed her foods.
Bad thing: The foods I ate did not agree with me. For the rest of the night so i got a $120 stomach ache that i will probably get again when i consume leftovers tonight.
Good thing: We got to the restaurant and came home with out much trouble on the roads
Bad thing: To get the car back into a spot he had to purchase: salt, shovels (in which they were out of Snow shovels at the lowes we went to therefore we had to purchase regular shovels), boots for love (because in all her pairs of shoes she has zero snow boots, also there were no snow boots in dsw, or target (even though they had bathing suits), we ended up having to go to Wal*Mart), and a bucket bringing the nights total to over $150.

update: the leftover were fine! and my love gave the night a 6 out 10 for the whole experience and a 9 out of 10 for the dinner.

Comment on: On being a widow of World of Warcraft

While searching the Internet for World of Warcraft type articles to entertain me while was at work I happen upon the title of this article and think that someone has died because they have played World of Warcraft and left behind a widow.
On being a widow of World of Warcraft - Rec Room - The Phoenix
Upon reading it I realize that it just a woman who is complaining because her boyfriend has stopped paying attention to her and her now has nothing better to do then write about how it makes her feel. Usually, I would look at an article like this and just pass on by it scoffing at the stupidity/sadness of the person who plays the game trying escape their crappy life so much that they are pissing off/ignoring the only person who can give them live the life they want to live, and person who has lost their current significant other because they have no idea how to deal correctly with the current situation. But this article struck a nerve, probably because of the false advertising in the title, and all the articles about Warcraft addiction and people quoting Dr. Maressa Orzack have just started pissing me off and because my brain needs rest in between studying I have decided to write about how i feel on the situation.

VR and AR
It is a great premise in Science Fiction that because of all of the hate and hurt that someone feels on a daily basis because of Actual Reality that this someone gets stuck in Virtual Reality. In reality though it is a different story, feeling numb is a sign that something is wrong and feeling nothing at all inhuman and robotic. What makes us know we are alive are things like anger, pain, and love. VR does not trump AR, it is a plastic shell to be used as a repository for feelings when it is not appropriate to use them otherwise or when one can go when they feel as thought they aren't getting feeling enough.

The moon is always fuller over Azeroth because its fake and the programmers can make it as full or as much of a sliver as they want to with the push a few buttons. Look to the actual sky and see the actual moon reflecting it light onto the earth moving oceans as it circles our tiny planet and be in awe of it regardless of its fullness.

Addiction
It seems to be a word thrown around these days. Food addiction, nicotine addiction, gambling addiction, I am tired of hearing it. I am tired of seeing people on TV complaining about how broke they are because they gambled it away and other such sob stories, but seeing the destruction it has caused first hand it is possible to become addicted to something. Although being addicted to a video game seems rather stretching it. If you would rather play World of Warcraft then eat, or be intimate with your significant other. Then maybe you have a problem. If you end up selling objects important to you in order to get your World of Warcraft fix. Then you probably have a problem. But wanting to play World of Warcraft rather then spending every waking hour paying attention to you and your every whim is NOT a problem.

Ok maybe that was a little below the belt and maybe he does have a tiny problem. Writing about it isn’t going to make the problem go away.

another thought for today

wow two thoughts in two days i must be on a roll! Ok, todays thought is ..
pancakes
.. yes thats a good thought. you can wrap them around meat on a stick, you can smother them in butter, you can even tie them in a string to keep away pancake demons
anyway. today all in all was a good day. my Hebrew midterm went smoothly. i think/hope that i got a good grade on it. we shall see though. I had yummy Chipotle which made me happy and that pretty much has been my day. i have an exciting math quiz tomorrow over work and l'hopital. why do we need to solve problems in which people don't really care unless your an engineer. oh well I am at work again and then i get to eat dinner and got to sleep with my love and then i get to wake up tomorrow and go to work even more and then a math quiz. so I am excited for the next 20 hour with all the fun thing i have planned. the best thing is that i will get to spend time with my love. the thought of her now brings a smile to my face.

my thought for today

apparently i haven't been having very many thoughts lately. Because this is my the place i put my thoughts and i haven't been writing in here recently. but since i have a headache now and can't study, i have decided to write a little in my blog

Today was going to be extremely busy but i cut it down a little by rescheduling something important so i am not happy about that. I am at work now. work sucks, especially when its in the proximity of math and physics. I really don't want to calculate the work done in moving a particle, I really don't care. although integration by parts is pretty nifty. Its like solving a puzzle. i like puzzles...thought train derailed .. math! right.. ok wtf is with l'Hopital. i definitely don't care about him.

Anyway.. I have a bible studies midterm tomorrow and thats something i don't want to study for. Stupid studing. My brain is already mush. random text color change . today for lunch i had a hot pocket(R) philly steak & cheese sub and it was tasty for about the first 3 bites of the first sub. after that it started tasting nasty and i wasn't even able to finish the second one. tomorrow i will have my weekly chipotle for lunch and i am excited for it.

i think thats all for now.